Why do you do this thing to me?
Why do you make me watch you die so slowly?
It's getting hard to breathe this air
Can't you see I am so scared?
The poison, it's suffocating
Somehow, for you, it's rehabilitating
The poison, it's killing you
And I don't know what to do.
Breathe in, it fills your lungs
Breathe out, no more songs
Breathe in, you're coughing now
Breathe out, I'm not sure how
Breathe in, it has consumed your past
Breath out, this may be your last...
Your lungs, they are as black as tar
Your liver, consumed with drink of the bar
Your arms, are filled with holes
The blood seeps from your nose
Your teeth, are completely wrecked
Yo
If I could capture the rage I feel
Forests would burn to the ground.
If I could capture the pain I feel
Birds would make no sound.
If I could harness rejection I feel
Flowers would wither and die.
If I could harness the cold I feel
There would be black and empty sky.
I start at my wrist where blood had been drawn
Pale and vulnerable, begging "Hold On!"
and I contemplate
Contemplate
And it's so wrong
I deserve this
I deserve this
Repeat and draw a line
New art forming
new blood flowing
warming
Pain is going
away.
Exhale, just let it flow
I am done, I am done
Leave me be
suffering in my own self pity.
At least here,
MUSIC
brings tears to my eyes
depth to my soul
it swells in my ears
and penetrates my heart...
I can taste the sweet
the bitter
the emotion
on my tongue
Speaks to me
beckons me to spread these battered wings
and soar...
high...
low...
with its notes
Is moving
Life with it
is like a withering plant without water
the Plant screams
It withers
The people scream
We wither
Music
Sweet music
We need thee
Move us
Let us linger in your presence
before drifting to a silent dark
and when we awake...
Listening to those sounds was always relaxing.
The pulse of the ocean
The Laughing seagulls and
The occasional jingle of a far off boat.
So peaceful.
The water was swirling around my feet almost like fingers wrapping around my ankles.
Beckoning me to go deeper into its
Dark Abyss...
The seagulls now taunting and laughing...
No longer in merriment...
but at me.
"Go"
The wind whispered in my ears
"Go."
The Sky...
No longer friendly
the sun gone.
Dark storm clouds rolling across the blue canvas.
Soft pitter-patter turns to a
Raging Downpour.
The water swirling at my feet no longer gentle
but Fierce and with each new s
They say everyone is here for a reason
But why am I here?
I am an outcast
I belong nowhere
to no one
I wonder if it makes them feel good to
stab me
ridicule me
tie me down
Bind me
Steal my joy
Sabotage my pleasure
Leave me in distress
Bruise me
Wound me
leave me wishing I was invisible
I want to leave
leave the scorn
destroy the pain
forget the hurt
heal the bruises
wash the dirt
I need to escape
to be free
Spread theses battered wings
and rise
rise
RISE
above it all
let it go
let these battered wings heal
I need You to know
I'm okay
I'm hurting
But I'm ready to let You...
Heal me
I lie in wait
For you to creep up
Invade my thoughts
Steal my rest
I close the door
Lock it tight
Please grant me
One peaceful night
You waltz to the door
Knock once, or twice
You break it down
I pay the price
What I have built up so carefully
You tear right down
I feel so shattered
You make no sounds
Inside my head the master Puppeteer
I've grown too dead
To face my fear
You laugh
All you ever do is laugh
I shut my eyes tight
GO AWAY! GET OUT!
Inside my head
I scream
I shout
Toss
Turn
I feel you burn
The back of my lids
like
acid
I try
I try
To ignore the pain
Ignore the hurt
The Acid
It Burns
Engraved on Your Wrist by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Engraved on Your Wrist
The pains of your life
Engraved on your wrist
What is the reason
For all of this?
One line for strife
One line for bliss
Two lines for life
Good times been missed.
Inflicting more pain
More burdens than you can bear
This is the bain
Of human despair.
Two lines for him
Two lines for her
Your cup's to the brim
No more can you stir.
I see you around
A glaze in your eyes
By those scars you are bound
Within your disguise.
You see one easy way
To end your despair
Leap out your window
Into the night air
and when they awake
A note they will find
They'll start to shake
And read your broken lines...
I'm sorry I left
Rolling...Striking...Running by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Rolling...Striking...Running
Running
Rushing everywhere....
Away from something?
Someone?
Rushing...rushing...rushing
Even past me
The first time, you stopped for a walk in the park with me...
The i hung back because I tripped
And you tripped
Over the same branch
You took off again
But this time...
I was a stranger
Invisible.
A storm was at your heels
I felt the lingering of your wind
Thinking it would pass
Soon following was a storm
That stopped me from going after you
Heavy winds rip and roar around me
Pouring, stinging rains pierce my skin and leave me blind and searching
Lightning strikes me when I think of you
Thunder is deafening and echoe
Let it go
See it fly
Hold up your hand
Wave goodbye
Don't let it take over
Break the chains
Set yourself free
Ignore the remains
Pick up the pieces
Hold your head high
Don't turn back
Don't even sigh
We make mistakes
That's how we are
No one is perfect
We all have scars
Happiness will come
Just forgive and forget
Easier said than done
But why live with regret?
It may seem silly
It may seem sly
It could be heavy
It could be a lie
Wishes and dreams
Don't forget about
Young or old
We can't live without
They nourish our souls
They free our minds
They intoxicate our body
They open the blinds
To let the light shi
Not Goodbye, but Hello by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Not Goodbye, but Hello
Im not saying goodbye,
Im restating my hello,
Im just taking a few steps back,
Making sure I go slow.
I never meant to hurt you,
That wasn't my intention,
Im a person... I make mistakes,
There's more than a few I could mention
But that's not the problem...
The problem apparently lies in me
Im too indecisive
I have the wrong intentions
Im too immature
I've hurt you so terribly
You're future has changed
Im worldly
I can't think straight
I can't forgive myself
I think adults are stupid
and Im ruining my life with religion
Obviously I could never be good enough
So why continue on?
I've learned the hard way
Pleasing
Why do you do this thing to me?
Why do you make me watch you die so slowly?
It's getting hard to breathe this air
Can't you see I am so scared?
The poison, it's suffocating
Somehow, for you, it's rehabilitating
The poison, it's killing you
And I don't know what to do.
Breathe in, it fills your lungs
Breathe out, no more songs
Breathe in, you're coughing now
Breathe out, I'm not sure how
Breathe in, it has consumed your past
Breath out, this may be your last...
Your lungs, they are as black as tar
Your liver, consumed with drink of the bar
Your arms, are filled with holes
The blood seeps from your nose
Your teeth, are completely wrecked
Yo
If I could capture the rage I feel
Forests would burn to the ground.
If I could capture the pain I feel
Birds would make no sound.
If I could harness rejection I feel
Flowers would wither and die.
If I could harness the cold I feel
There would be black and empty sky.
I start at my wrist where blood had been drawn
Pale and vulnerable, begging "Hold On!"
and I contemplate
Contemplate
And it's so wrong
I deserve this
I deserve this
Repeat and draw a line
New art forming
new blood flowing
warming
Pain is going
away.
Exhale, just let it flow
I am done, I am done
Leave me be
suffering in my own self pity.
At least here,
MUSIC
brings tears to my eyes
depth to my soul
it swells in my ears
and penetrates my heart...
I can taste the sweet
the bitter
the emotion
on my tongue
Speaks to me
beckons me to spread these battered wings
and soar...
high...
low...
with its notes
Is moving
Life with it
is like a withering plant without water
the Plant screams
It withers
The people scream
We wither
Music
Sweet music
We need thee
Move us
Let us linger in your presence
before drifting to a silent dark
and when we awake...
Listening to those sounds was always relaxing.
The pulse of the ocean
The Laughing seagulls and
The occasional jingle of a far off boat.
So peaceful.
The water was swirling around my feet almost like fingers wrapping around my ankles.
Beckoning me to go deeper into its
Dark Abyss...
The seagulls now taunting and laughing...
No longer in merriment...
but at me.
"Go"
The wind whispered in my ears
"Go."
The Sky...
No longer friendly
the sun gone.
Dark storm clouds rolling across the blue canvas.
Soft pitter-patter turns to a
Raging Downpour.
The water swirling at my feet no longer gentle
but Fierce and with each new s
They say everyone is here for a reason
But why am I here?
I am an outcast
I belong nowhere
to no one
I wonder if it makes them feel good to
stab me
ridicule me
tie me down
Bind me
Steal my joy
Sabotage my pleasure
Leave me in distress
Bruise me
Wound me
leave me wishing I was invisible
I want to leave
leave the scorn
destroy the pain
forget the hurt
heal the bruises
wash the dirt
I need to escape
to be free
Spread theses battered wings
and rise
rise
RISE
above it all
let it go
let these battered wings heal
I need You to know
I'm okay
I'm hurting
But I'm ready to let You...
Heal me
I lie in wait
For you to creep up
Invade my thoughts
Steal my rest
I close the door
Lock it tight
Please grant me
One peaceful night
You waltz to the door
Knock once, or twice
You break it down
I pay the price
What I have built up so carefully
You tear right down
I feel so shattered
You make no sounds
Inside my head the master Puppeteer
I've grown too dead
To face my fear
You laugh
All you ever do is laugh
I shut my eyes tight
GO AWAY! GET OUT!
Inside my head
I scream
I shout
Toss
Turn
I feel you burn
The back of my lids
like
acid
I try
I try
To ignore the pain
Ignore the hurt
The Acid
It Burns
Engraved on Your Wrist by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Engraved on Your Wrist
The pains of your life
Engraved on your wrist
What is the reason
For all of this?
One line for strife
One line for bliss
Two lines for life
Good times been missed.
Inflicting more pain
More burdens than you can bear
This is the bain
Of human despair.
Two lines for him
Two lines for her
Your cup's to the brim
No more can you stir.
I see you around
A glaze in your eyes
By those scars you are bound
Within your disguise.
You see one easy way
To end your despair
Leap out your window
Into the night air
and when they awake
A note they will find
They'll start to shake
And read your broken lines...
I'm sorry I left
Rolling...Striking...Running by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Rolling...Striking...Running
Running
Rushing everywhere....
Away from something?
Someone?
Rushing...rushing...rushing
Even past me
The first time, you stopped for a walk in the park with me...
The i hung back because I tripped
And you tripped
Over the same branch
You took off again
But this time...
I was a stranger
Invisible.
A storm was at your heels
I felt the lingering of your wind
Thinking it would pass
Soon following was a storm
That stopped me from going after you
Heavy winds rip and roar around me
Pouring, stinging rains pierce my skin and leave me blind and searching
Lightning strikes me when I think of you
Thunder is deafening and echoe
Let it go
See it fly
Hold up your hand
Wave goodbye
Don't let it take over
Break the chains
Set yourself free
Ignore the remains
Pick up the pieces
Hold your head high
Don't turn back
Don't even sigh
We make mistakes
That's how we are
No one is perfect
We all have scars
Happiness will come
Just forgive and forget
Easier said than done
But why live with regret?
It may seem silly
It may seem sly
It could be heavy
It could be a lie
Wishes and dreams
Don't forget about
Young or old
We can't live without
They nourish our souls
They free our minds
They intoxicate our body
They open the blinds
To let the light shi
Not Goodbye, but Hello by turtlemelon17, literature
Literature
Not Goodbye, but Hello
Im not saying goodbye,
Im restating my hello,
Im just taking a few steps back,
Making sure I go slow.
I never meant to hurt you,
That wasn't my intention,
Im a person... I make mistakes,
There's more than a few I could mention
But that's not the problem...
The problem apparently lies in me
Im too indecisive
I have the wrong intentions
Im too immature
I've hurt you so terribly
You're future has changed
Im worldly
I can't think straight
I can't forgive myself
I think adults are stupid
and Im ruining my life with religion
Obviously I could never be good enough
So why continue on?
I've learned the hard way
Pleasing
I was looking back through all of my writings because I had received a criticism that they were kind of awful. It was from someone whom I respect and I realized that many of my writings are depressed, whiny, "typical teen angst" writings. They might be kind of awful, but they helped me get through a lot of things that I had problems expressing in something other than rhyme. I don't regret writing; looking back kind of makes me cringe at some things and relive the hurt of others. I know my art is not a world class champagne and reading it would be enough to make someone's eyes bleed, but it was a device, a safe outlet that I used to channel my
I miss you... a lot.
I hate the fact that i never have time to talk to you anymore
I also dislike the way i acted when we did talk
Im sorry :/
I miss when you said "I love you" to me all the time
Cause i know...now.... that you weren't joking
and it makes me so upset at myself because we still could have been like that
But i freaked out and thought i was going to get hurt again
LIES
I wound up hurting YOU
and myself
and messing things up.
And now i wallow in regrets because i know its going to take a lot of hard work and trust before that thought even crosses your mind again
Why am i bringing this up now?
Because... I mis
"Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories
'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
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